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Oh man, oh man! I am so excited to meet my little girl! The two most amazing moments are going to be seeing Matthew holding her for the very first time and taking Lexi to church for the first time. Seeing Matthew hold our little girl is going to be beyond amazing. I chose Matthew to be her daddy because of who he is as a christian man and he is going to make such a wonderful father! For many years he has been challenging himself to become a father that God calls him to be. He has by far exceeded what God has called him to be as a husband and I know this will be true as a father as well.

At my bible study yesterday I was asking for prayers because I now need to see another specialist (I think #6 or 7 so far during this pregnancy). One of the ladies came up to me and commented on how I seem to be just taking things in stride. This is all due to the grace of God and influence of my husband. Several years ago I would have been a crying nervous mess. Matthew has ministered to me though his complete trust and faith in God's plans. This has become the attitude in our home because of who Matthew is and that is so wonderful for our baby girl! Hopefully my history of worry and anxiety will not be passed onto baby Lexi! That has been one of my goals during pregnancy, not to pass along stress hormones. God has been so faithful in that only a few moments of anxiety of occurred.

Praise God and Praise God for Matthew! Oh man, oh man! She is coming!!!

Delivery

So I have been reflecting on Labor and Delivery. Yes, millions of women have done it, yes millions of women have done it well. However, that is less and less of a comfort as I come near the time that I have to deliver. I know that many families would give anything to be able to experience this, but I am getting scared. Lexi is already above average for weight and that freaks me out a little more. She has to come out!!!! I don't know who even reads this blog, but I don't want to freak you out. I am just having a few moments of nervousness about bringing this little girl into the world.

I have several friends who are all natural! I don't think that is me. I ran the idea by Matthew and he actually laughed at the thought of me trying all natural. Not that he wouldn't support me %100, but the reality is I am wimpy and DON'T like pain. People say you can't remember pain...that is hogwash. I can remember pain! If the car gets scratched, I say "ouch" because to me I feel pain. I can remember all the times I have been in major pain (spinal tap was the worse) and it hurt!!!!!! So I am praying that I will be able to have an epidural.

I also have a friend (Whitney) who is amazingly strong. She watched her daughter in a mirror coming out. She talks about labor so calmly like it was no big deal. She said, yes it did hurt, "but you forget it." So many people say you forget the pain when you see the baby. If you forget the pain why do I hear so many stories about the pain?? I was the at the hospital several hours after my sister was born and my parents were pale and overwhelmed by their awful birthing experience. I clearly remember how awful it was! But too late now, I am knocked up and she has to come out. I really am so thrilled to meet my daughter who has been growing all this time. I know delivery will happen, I am just having a scared moment.

How do I put the ticker on the blog and not on a post?

32 weeks and counting

We are just at 8ish weeks away from D-day. We got to have a sonogram yesterday and she is still a she! Lexi is weighing approximately 5lbs and 2oz. Since I only weighed 7lbs and something oz, I had not expected such a big baby. With Matthew's genetic contribution, she is going to probably be over 9 lbs when she arrives. Yikes...that has got to come out! Hopefully lots of prayer and medication will make this not so painful! Here are her most recent pics.

The nursery is almost complete and will soon have pics up of that. I am not sure where my camera is after the move.
Enjoy and lots of love.